Today's question is what do I wish for my well-being?
It doesn't take much thought to come to the realization that I wish for some peacefulness on a relationship situation I am dealing with. And unfortunately, it is not one I can just walk away from..nor do I want to. Watching your daughter grow up is difficult at best, watching her grow up unhappy is painful at the least.
Today when I spoke with my (wise) grandmother she said...this age is a like mixing a cake, Anita. It is just all crumbles and keeps falling all apart until finally all the moisture gets worked in and everything smooths out. I simply cannot describe to you how much I love this 90 yo woman.
I think what I'm going to need to do is devise some sort of releasing ritual. And if I have to do it every single day in order to release the anger and frustration at how we are being treated and manipulated, this is what I will need to do. I need to get back to seeing my girl's shining beautiful face.